「Things change. They always do. One of the laws of nature. Most people are afraid of change, but if you look at it like it's something you can always count on, then it can be a comfort. There's not many things you can really count on.」
Nobody understands when a woman makes a choice to marry and have children, in one way her life begins,but in another way, it stops. You build a life of details, and you just stop and stay steady, so that your children can move. And when they leave,they take your life of details with them.You are expected to move on again, but you don`t remember what it was that moved you,because no one`s asked you in so long. Not even youself.
「The old dreams were good dreams. They didn't work out, but glad I had them.」
The old dreams were good dreams. They didn't work out, but I'm glad I had them.
「I had thoughts about him. I hardly knew what to do with, and he read every one. Whatever I felt, whatever I wanted, he gave himself up to, and in that moment everything I knew to be true about myself up until then was gone. I was acting like another woman, yet I was more myself than ever before.」
Seems right now, that all I have done in my life was making my way here to you.
「I don't want to need you, 'cause I can't have you.」
I'll say this once. I never said it before. This kind of certainty comes just once in a lifetime.
「We are the choices that we have made, Robert. You don't understand. Don't you see? Nobody understands when a woman makes a choice to marry and have chlidren; in one way, her life begins, but in another way, it stops. You build a life of details and you just stop and stay steady so that your children can move. And when they leave they take your life of details with them. You're expected to move on again, but you don't even remember what it was that moved you because nobody has asked you in so long, not even yourself. But you never think... You never think love like this will happen to you. ↓ But now that you have it... ↓ Now I want to keep it forever. I want to love you the way I do now for the rest of my life but if we leave... we lose it. And I can't make an entire life disappear to start a new one. All I can do is try to hold onto to both of us somewhere inside of me. You have to help me. ↓ Don't lose us. Don't throw us away.」
I don't want to need you, because I can't have you.
「I'll only say this once. I've never said it before. This kind of certainty comes but just once in a lifetime.」
「You all came home. And with you, my life of details.」
「For a moment, I didn't know where I was. And for a split second the thought crossed my mind that he really didn't want me. But it was easy to walk away.」
「I realized love won't obey our expectations, its mystery is pure and absolute. What Robert and I had, could not continue if we were together. What Richard and I shared would vanish if we were apart. But how I wanted to share this. How would our lives have changed if I had? Could anyone else have seen the beauty of it?」
「After reading all this... I hope you can now understand my burial request. It was not the ravings of some mad old lady. I gave my life to my family. I wish to give Robert what is left of me.」